via chicago.

my dearests.

here i am, leaving chicago for the last time on this tour. kevin is driving, suzi is navigating, filipe is sleeping, and i am reflecting on how beautiful this tour has been.

it has been almost three months that i have lived in this van. lived a life full of adventure, uncertainty, insecurity, displacement, joy, and pain. all mixed in together. at times, i will admit, it was overwhelming. and at times, all i wanted was a good friend from home to cry or laugh with. but at times - so many times i cannot even count - i wished that this would never end. and i am at this point now.

it is the strangest thing. these three vagabonds have become my family. so much more than i ever expected, and it is the most dangerous thought to think about not seeing them again for a long time after this. we have learned to live with each other and love each other through everything. we have learned how to bring up things that should offend, but to work through them and admit that we are wrong. to extend forgiveness. to laugh at each other. and at ourselves. so much.

i wish i could let you guys in on some of my life these past few months. i wish that you could have spent some time with these three incredible people. and i wish that these past three months hadn't been so far away from so many people that i love. but it is coming to the next stage in my life, and as much as i am not ready to move forward, sometimes life gives us no choice but to do so.

so with no expectations, i am creeping toward life after invisible children. i am moving to san diego with my good friend, amy, and to be honest, i have no idea how long i will be there. or what i am doing. or who i am going to be friends with. or who i will be seeing.

or what love will look like in this next stage.

isn't it funny how love evolves? how it grows? how it changes and how you grow through it all?

so here we go to san diego. to a new stage of life for all of us. to learning to welcome change.

love you all.
kristin.

i'm going home, via chicago.
i'm searching for a home, via chicago.
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