as of late.

there have been too too many emotions for me lately.

i am an emotional person. i have no problem with that. but lately, i cannot figure out how i am feeling.

i am lonely, yet i am surrounded by great roommates and a sister whom i love deeply.
i am without a plan, although i have prided myself on being adaptable and noncommittal.
i miss someone way too much, and yet i have said i don't mind being single and that i do not need someone else to get by.

i guess i am discovering that life is a paradox. well, i guess i am rediscovering it. all i know is that i need to stop being lazy and start the hard work again. start being intentional, start becoming the person who i was begining to see emerge before. it pains me that i am so ...

[complacent. and easily satisfied.]

it's time to get moving again. i started this post a few hours ago and i cannot honestly remember what i was posting about. probably something about love, loneliness, and a thirst for growth.

more to come later, i would guess.

loves.
k.

i need the mountains again ... i crave adventure.